soul full ness

long ago I read The Lady Who Sailed the Soul

by Cordwainer Smith (secret identity Paul Myron

Anthony Linebarger), about a woman who had a

starship across a vast distance while her c o n

s c I o u s n e s s was slowed so that it seemed to

her her hair gushed out of her head.

later he began “Himself in Anachron”

but died before he finished. an artificial intelligence

just told me it is about a man who must save his wife

by divorcing himself from time and space,

in the sacrificial sense similar

to “The Lady Who Sailed the Soul.”

the author and editor Harlan Ellison went to some

length to acquire “Himself in Anachron” for the third

volume of his Dangerous Visions trilogy. his effort

was in vain.

today i walked two miles to see the west Toledo

library for the first time. I perused the science fiction

shelves and found Tommy dismay that they had NO

Poul Anderson books, NO Isaac Asimov. But they had

a single volume of Harlan Ellison, copyright 2014:

The Top of the Volcano, a compilation of Ellison

stories that had won awards.

i had read most of them but there was a long story

i had not. in it a man named bailey

had his soul yanked from him to be placed

into the soul of an alien military subaltern named

Pinke, there to cajole Pinke into ending a war that

had gone on for generations.

i have not finished the story. I will leave that

for another visit. rather, now, i reflect on the amazing

succession of life-events: i read Cordwainer Smith,

his story was covered by Harlan Ellison, i found the

Ellison book in the West Toledo Public Library, and

I began to read his story of the abduction and

exploitation of souls…

three weeks to the day

after having arrived in Toledo

from Phoenix, Arizona

in the company of my sweetheart

in an automobile of make Kia,

model

Soul.

Late this evening I completed a draft of the two acrostic poems on this page. I also embellished the textual elements and did more drawing within the two half-moons.

King& Queen

Kumquats @ a B•B•Q

If you mist it — c’est perdu

Now sweet breezes intervene

Getting shut of airs obscene

& reventing shit up spleen

..

Mana Wife

Many woes beset us now

As our land resists the plow. I

Need you, dear. Help me un-oaf

As we ask our soles to Loafe

..

These are drafts. More stages coming soon!

Captured 21 July 2026

Day after day I’ve told my sweetheart Donna, “I have got to draw today.” And yet I didn’t and didn’t.

Today is different. Marvelously so. I have the above Work In Progress well under way, and pleasant surprises abound with it, and I have high hopes for it. The “King& Queen” acrostic’s rhyme scheme has been solved, rhyming BBQ with C’est Perdu (schoolboy French to the rescue again!) and the first line establishes a bizarre matchup.

Much needs to begin, but as Mary Poppins tells us, “Well Begun is Half Done.”

Cheers, my friends!!

shaving techniques of the corrugated-skin american: haibun

complications ensue when an american male’s facial flesh ages and he wishes to be clean-shaven. many hairs that were softly pliable in the springtime of youth have become thicker and tougher in their dotage. they are anchored in skinfold that was once smooth hillside. the hide of the old american’s face must needs be stretched into tympanic tightness for effectual shaving to occur; and the stretch must often be not merely with fingers, but perhaps over sawhorse-planked teeth, compressed cheek-air, or even tongue-poke for that mutant milkweed of a follicle that so stubbornly resists shearing.

over decades, standards of the american facial æsthetic have shifted. in the mid 1980s it became popular to always look as if a shave had not occurred for several days. this was due to the star quality of mr. don johnson, one of two male leads in the hit series miami vice. but in 2020s america foliagiality is more complex. baseball pitchers, once facially bald as eggs, may now be found with anything from pencil moustaches to old-testament-patriarchy on their young faces.

an old man has just realized that he is able to shave with the grain of his beardstubble and still look as if he recently shaved. today he has done this for the second day in a row, and confirmed that this technique reduces nicks and cuts to zero.

in times uncertain

let us draw the act-ending curtain

on self-harm.

A Pedestrian in Toledo Walks Past a House

North of Sylvania west of Bowen

In Toledo predawn a pedestrian sees a house

Bunting is draped in front of the front porch

A week after Independence Day

The house glows near both front and side doors

The upstairs lights are out

The pedestrian pulls his phone from his pocket

And uses it to record an image of the house

Simple photoediting tools add magic to the light

Adherence to the rule of thirds guides cropping

The pedestrian/photographer/poet/publisher finishes

Suspending judgment, he wishes the household well

weed woe

the unjunglization of a back yard in toledo

ohio will now commence

and the association with purgatory become

particularly dense

as two souls in their seventies take on

this onerous task

the bitter fluid of drudgery is served

in an earthenware flask

fat hours

sunday 7:53 am edt

sun way up

weeds tall in the back

coffee unbrewed

..

in the fat hours

fate fatigue fatality fata morgana loom

inertia stuns the leanhearted

as the hours fatten yet more

goodbye, sweet hot phoenix

where a poetry bomb was brought

where a corridor was caffeinated

and a marriage was dissolved

I lived in the Valley of the Sun most of my life. I was able as a child to walk barefoot on asphalt in heat upwards of 110° F. In 1989 I and my then-spouse bought a house near 19th Avenue and Bethany Home Road, and about a year later our daughter was born at Community Hospital, less than a mile away. The marriage lasted 23 years, but was only intermittently happy.

hello, toledo, ohio

where my sweetheart has taken me on as cohabitant

whence we came after traveling in a 2023 kia soul

named celeste

At 11:52 PM the night of July 3rd, 2026 I left my apartment for the last time; the lease expired at midnight. I and my sweetheart spent our last night in Phoenix at the Hampton Inn & Suites. The morning of July 4 we left Phoenix; near sundown we found ourselves in downtown Albuquerque, New Mexico, looking for authentic New Mexican Mexican food. My sweetheart stepped on a sort of grating with small round cutouts, her flipflop caught an edge, and she pitched forward onto her face most of the impact was absorbed by her right knee and her nose near its bridge. We ended up ordering pizza delivery from Pizza 9, a chain based in New Mexico. It was delicious.

Next evening, after driving halfway through the Texas Panhandle, we stopped for the day at Amarillo and had appetizer takeout from the Red Robin across the street from our hotel. The pretzel bites were good but after a day of monotonous scenery of grass, wind farms, baled hay and occasional cows, we were too hypnotized to enjoy it much.

In Yukon, in metropolitan Oklahoma City, we had an unmemorable meal except for fried green beans while watching the U.S. soccer team fall to Belgium. The better team won, thank Goodness. That day we’d had nice cloudscapes and terrain that reminded my sweetheart Donna of her native Tennessee.

In Saint Robert, Missouri, near Lebanon, Donna and I had a DELICIOUS steak dinner at a place called Colton’s. We were a bit put off by the bad taxidermy of the trophy heads, though.

Next day was chaos and mishap. In Saint Louis sudden rain and an abrupt lane change lent themselves to a near collision, sending me into a narrow triangle of asphalt that was neither one lane nor the other, and only quick braking prevented a sideswipe. I did not shake, but was shaken.

Right past the stadium in Indianapolis the AI navigator announced a seventeen-minute slowdown, and gridlock prevailed. Just when it eased some came the news that a five-minute slowdown was imminent. It feels crawly to go from 70+ mph to less than a slow walk.

From then on, despite frequent lane closures and mowing and construction zones, driving was smooth. The “Welcome to Ohio” sign gave us a big boost. The “Highway 225/Toledo” turnoff was positively thrilling; and we rolled up our driveway before it was fully dark.

now we are in a town

that will become my town

as the end of one journey dovetails

into the beginning of another.

First supper at home

gas station catfish

To Lyn Herndon Burmeister

we drove across new mexico

intended to stop at tucumcari

but none of the exit signs said we were there

so we drove past tucumcari

and needing gas pulled in a valero

in the middle of new mexican nowhere

..

the gas station had a convenience store

the convenience store had cornmealed catfish

and we were starving

..

and my beloved tennessee sweetheart

ate the catfish

and found it good

though perhaps shy

of the epic catfish she had had when young

..

granted it is improbable to find catfish of this caliber

at a gas station

but i just moved from phoenix arizona

where many delicious burrito had by me

came from a chevron station on 3rd and indian school

i mean–you never know

the traveling identity

the car is stuffed and yet

there’s more that needs to go

and the traveler needs to leave in mere hours

and so the traveler does not complete

a final sleep in his rented apartment

which must be empty today

..

packed are boxes and boxes of sculpted birds

and acoustic guitar a bass guitar an amp

and a box containing a birth certificate

and other valuable considerations

..

yet to load is this bag of notebooks

within which the traveler codified his soul

stretched his imagination and his skills

..

it must be loaded

even if something dearly desired must be tossed

..

but a lightbulb over his head

becomes a beacon of hope

..

“climate-controlled storage” he whispers

with a slight smile of relief

..

most of his identity will travel

the rest will stay in the valley he loves

for three months

his soul will travel and yet stay

just a little longer

just a little